its been a while...bored...yea read old blogs. damn that was some cool dialogue huh?
posted by bruce at 12:44 PM
the weather is gloomy gray. as empty as a shell...the filling where? i don't kno? two forks in the road. correct or incorrect. and so the little kid is in line for the toy drawing contest. picks a toy. but wants to kno if there's a better toy...so he waits till near the end...puasing the game...but the game is hard...played with patience. patience is key. what is the lock? time itself? conventionally time will wear the lock down. but isn't time the lock? therefore it is only where itself down? no. but rather there is no key and no lock. only the interwoven strands of space-time. reality itself is a myth. what is real. did we make reality? or did reality produce us? are we the observers or merely the observed? the kid finds that there is nothing better. so what if the toy had feelings. the toy is just there isn't it? no. it maybe of a higher order. statisics and probability. right and wrong. the fork yet again. one may be here, but maybe not. so many situations so many solutions to the equation of life. what does life equal to? money? power? fame? happiness? ultimately u'll "become" happy? is that good enuf? who wants a happiness that came to be because of time...time again is a factor in this talk about life and equations? what is life? what is the equation? fear drives this need for a solution to the equation. if a solution is found then why do we have to find a universal solution. is one solution not good enuf? but that drives us back to the question what is the equation. it must obvious contain many solutions. but which solution is the best? which fits the equation in the best possible way. why is there doubt. i don't see doubt in an obvious solution. but some how there is doubt...i do not understand this doubt. it is of an unknown original. yes it is not bad. but it is not good. the doubt has its own variables. its looks like candy. initally tastes like candy. but it is eventually going be some nasty taste of medicine. shells...without substance. just a walk thru life. purpose and goal...none that envokes a pleasant feeling. a nawing at the pit in the stomach no resolution at the microscope level. the neurons fire. but the nerves give no signal. no visibility. why? is it easy or hard? making it easy? of course...the mind is the all powerful. harness your mind and you harness yourself... is that good or is that bad? are those who have complete control of there thoughts happier?
maybe it is the ignorance and bliss complexity. which is it? is ignorance bliss? or is ignorance the in ability to understand which brings on bliss...no thoughts...no emotions...nothing that hinders the goals in life. what is the goal in life. is it the equation? the derivation of the equation of life? who knows...all there is is doubt, confusion and the fork.
posted by bruce at 6:49 PM
oh yea my stupid ass printer doesn't want to work thank god i don't need to print anything for finals
posted by bruce at 3:36 AM
three down one to go...the last one...on friday how shitty is that? finals shouldn't be given on fridays hell finals shouldn't be given at all how about that. i'm sick and tired of my grade being based on a test that is designed for 3 hours...who the fucking hell can think after 2 hours of testing let alone 3 ... and those who aren't lucky may get 3 hours for one test and come out of that to another 3 hour test...i mean holy fuck i've done it and well i can tell you that my brain was fucking fried as an egg can be... don't you just love my analogies its great i think of all these analogies that i can use to describe situations in life i should become one of those people that talk in riddles but in my case i would be talking in analogies kinda like those old kung fu masters that talk all philosophical and stuff. yea that's great and man its late i should be in bed but i'm not. i'm tired. i don't feel like studying for my last final becuase it was the one that i'm least worried about. and of course irony has to be right in my face and have me take that as my last final instead of giving me more time to study for my math and physics. am i complaning too much? no i don't think so but maybe i am so...i guess its time to give some random thoughts / postings of weird stupid things that have no relation to what i'm talking about above or anything to do with anything in the real world sometimes? mmm what to say. my enemy's enemy is my friend. hahah mmm hard to apply but very true statement well hard to apply right now. but yea we should all live in peace and harmony but that is too idealistic isn't it? but its good to hope. hope is good. hope is what keeps some people alive. those with out hope...that's bad because hope is what gives life. how long can i possible make this post hahah i wonder if people will just get bored about reading my long posts instead of my stupid one sentence, equation, fragmented sentences posts where there was plenty before. i think this is my way of being verbose after being in an english class where my teacher doesnt' like us using the passive voice which is kinda set in stone for us after being in highschool for 4 years and they never taught us how to use active voice it was always who could write the most bull shit for a paper to make it the longest and to make it sound 'good'. hahahahah technical writing it should have been a seminar rather than a class oh well i think i'm gonna stop this post now its getting too long and i've got something more important to tend to.
posted by bruce at 3:22 AM
hmmmm i'm behind on my weird postings of random thoughts but i guess one more long entry won't hurt =p physics was a pain today...tomorrow is math day because on monday is my final...too soon i think...no calculator no notes no nothing, just pencil, eraser and our noggins =p noggins hehe that's a funnie word i should use it more often. so all those semester ppl are enjoying spring break right now while us quarter ppl have finals but its all balanced because they prolly have term papers to write and we enjoy spring break as it should be with no school work to be worried about. =p spring break should be 2 weeks. but then everything should be longer =p i wish days were long so i could cram in more studying. but then if days were longer then the days to break time would be longer but then the break time itself would be longer also so....i guess it all evens out. mmm this is quite long for me should i stop here? hehe btw i can't see what i'm typing cuz i went pass the bar...sooo hmmmm i guess i should stop before i make so many typing errors that this is unreadable hahahahahah =p they should really have more templates on this blog thing hehehe i think i commented on that earlier some where down below =p =p =pokie i think i'm done for now back to studying for physics or maybe math....mmmm deecisions decisions =pp
posted by bruce at 1:04 AM
why the fuck did my physics teacher lecture on the last day of class? isn't it time for review??? what a dumb fucking ass! turned in my transformer for 5% grade boost for EE hopefully that'll boost me to an A- but then again i haven't taken the fucking final yet so that's another thing to worry about plus my maht and physics final god damn them to hell. why am i so fucking pissed i don't really kno. i just like the feeling of wanting to break something so bad but i cna't cuz then i would have to replace it is not appealing which is what is keeping me from breaking anything that can be broken...
posted by bruce at 12:43 AM
sharps and fuzzies in my physics book describes things that we can measure and things that are probabilies in the wonderful world of quantum mechanics so yea my english report is almost done thank god maybe i'll actually get an A- in the class...i'll need that. physics and math shooting for that B mark and EE + lab shooting for a B+/A- after finals this is all after finals is what i hope for...but knowing my luck in physics...bleh...math...math is gonna be a bitch...or is it physics...prolly both >=O
posted by bruce at 4:18 PM
so yea i have a electrical engineering lab final tomorrow and what am i doing i'm reading my stupid ass physics book. have i said how stupidly fucked up my teacher is? no well here goes. he's lecturing on 2 chapters of quantum mechanics with all the wonderful mathemtical formulas that go with it. half the class is wondering what the fuck he's talking about, and man he writes like a mad man trying to get it all done within lecture time, and he asks if we have any questions...of course we have questions if we only stop trying to figure out his messy hand writing and stop our hand from automatically copying what he writes we may be able to formulate some sort of thought on the subject yes i'm writing with no puncutations and prolly millinos of spelling errors but i'm an engineer so sue me you damn lawyers...hahaha
posted by bruce at 4:13 PM
there should be more templates on this thing maybe i should stop talking so little in each post but maybe that's what makes mine unique =P i dunno i don't think i could sit down and talk about nonsense for like 15 mins my interesting thoughts come and go i don't have a whole string full of them =P
posted by bruce at 8:37 PM
ah the 10th week of school...why is there still teaching go on? why isn't there review...
posted by bruce at 8:36 PM
